Stopdropburn

I've been posting in Substance Abuse. Was actuay kind of avoiding this group because I didn't want to keep seeing "Suboxone" "Methsdone" repeatedly and being reminded. But facing your DOC is part of recovery. I used to use any and all opiates I could get before settling on Suboxone for about 3-4 years. For a few weeks I was flip-flopping Suboxone and Methadone depending on availabilty, that was years ago. Recently I tried to stop cold turkey from 3-4mg a day of Suboxone, by Day 3 I failed. I randomly got access to 18 5mg Methadone, so I took one each morning (Subs were dry for a few days) with the intent to switch back to Subs just long enough to let the Meth half-life break down and then taper myself to 1mg a day of Subs and quit. So I did 18 days of 5mg Methadone, waited one day and started 1mg of Suboxone for 8 days and quit. Today is Day 8! I still have chills, still can't sleep, still craving - though not terribly, depending on my anxiety level, and as a result of w/d I'm now sick too - I'm told this is very common. I started vitamins and eating healthy and light workouts. It's not been the easiest days....but it's possible to beat it. You have to want it, have to want to be strong, endure....think of the warriors and soldiers throughout the ages that have been wounded and beaten and continue to march forward through the pain....we can not feel worse than that. We can beat this.