Your memory will return! Give time time. Allow the healing to take place.
Long term, short term, those memories are there, just not yet accessible! Relax. Sometimes our "alcoholism" tries to give us a reason to drink again. Don't give in! Work some kind of program to keep yourself sober.
In time, you will be a better sober version of you.
Try an AA meeting so
you can talk directly with people who are going through what you are going through. Remember, everyone has an opinion, so I suggest talking to several people.
Think of it this way, a lot of people suffer brain damage through accidents, but they are able, in time, to relearn how to walk, talk or to do other things. This is because the human brain
does heal, in time.
Someone I know gave me a clock and said, "Give time time." Something to remember every time I see that clock on my shelf! If I could, I'd hand you a clock and say the same thing. Maybe write a journal of this time in your life. Something to read in another 3 months!