I am 4 1/2 months sober and am still feeling depressed. I haven't heard of PAWS until now...it's almost a relief to know that I'm not doing this alone and there is actually a scientific reason for it.
My brain is like oatmeal these days. I can't remember anything and feel like I can actually hear the wind blowing through what is left in my head. I simply chalked it up to my ego becoming silent. It was so loud before and overbearing that, now that I'm silencing it and relying on God, my own voice is quiet.
I'm so sorry that you are struggling so badly. Please hang in there. Do you have a sponsor you can call? Know that you are not alone. Thank you for your honesty. I will be praying for you that you may find peace in the midst of your storm.