I don't know if this happened to you but for me........ I'd go through my days and slowly but surely, I'd start feeling tense. Nothing massive.......but it was pervasive. I'd start getting angry....or maybe depressed. I'd feel like I was missing the boat in life....like I wasn't enjoying much of anything and the good things that did come my way - the shine of them wore off quickly. That stuff seemed to build and build while I wasn't drinking because the type of alcoholism I have affects me the most when I'm not drinking. As the pressure built, I'd get progressively more anxious and restless....... something was "off" but I couldn't put my finger on it.
As soon as I'd get some booze though, I'd start to feel better cuz I knew as soon as that stuff got in me, I'd start to feel better. .......hell, usually just getting in the car and driving to the liquor store would start to cheer me up.