Good people can make bad choices.. we can also make good ones. I also came from an alcoholic home, and thought I could never 'be like that'.. wrong. Good for you for identifying that you need to stop drinking, that's the easy part.. your next good choices in how to address that are the tough ones. Glad you're here, there's a ton of support and experience to be found in these posts, the 'stickies', in chat, etc. Welcome!