Hey Amy...I don't think any of us are bad people...Just dealing with a bad problem. The good news is...There are ways you can quit. And this site has quite a few peple that have and are willing to help you. We do some embarrassing things when we drink..That goes with territory...But the fact that you are recognising you have a problem and want to stop is a great start...Welcome to SR...There is a lot of good support here.