Welcome back DJD88
I'm not sure it really matters what other people think...if you ant to stop, you ant to stop - other people really didn't come into it for me by the end, I was that desperate.
& there's certainly no need for you to go around with a huge Red A on your chest anyway....unless you want to.
If you're interested in secular recovery - many of which offer online meetings and support - I'd encourage you to check out our
Secular Connections forum.
I'd also encourage you to seek some professional medical supervision.
I'm not sure why you'd think you might be suspected of Dr shopping unless you've done that in the past?
Finally, the shaking - in my experience, unless you've done some irreparable damage, the shakes should subside - but only if you stop drinking completely.
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