Thank you for all your replies! You are all right. I will just take it slow and see where things go. I am tired of listening to words and empty promises.. I just get hurt that way. I need to watch his actions, because that shows if he really wants to recover, truly. Not for me, not his family but for HIM. I don't think I will cut off contact, in reality I still love him and care about him, but that doesn't mean I need to rush into things, i need to put my feelings aside for now. However, I will try minimum contact.. not talking constantly and seeing each other too much. Only time can tell what will happen.. but this time i will not be a fool. I realized I am just like him.. I make empty promises and threats but never keep and go along with them..
god bless you all
we are strong