Hi Called - Welcome
I've never been to rehab, but I absolutely positively had to change my life - I had a heavy drinking circle of friends, my life revolved around alcohol, and everytime I tried to stay sober within that life, I was pulled back into drinking.
I knew I had to quit - so I had to make some tough decisions about the people I hung out with and the places I went.
I'm glad I did though - I don't regret any of it now...I have a life I love and I can look myself in the face in the mirror again
If you think rehab is the way for you, I know the Salvation Army runs some free rehab programme in some areas of the US.
Your Dr or psych may know of other avenues and programmes too. I know you're worried about your meds but it really is the best thing for you to be honest with your Dr - be open and upfront, get some help and advice, and you can start to dig your way out of all this
good to have you with us - there's a lot of support here too
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