Hello Innerchild! Thank you for reaching out, that is very brave of you to put yourself out there when you are feeling so vulnerable. I hope you are okay, we are always here for you. Relationships can be so difficult sometimes!!! Self-care is really important and i hope you can find ways to take care of yourself that do not involve drinking. It is important to remember that there is little we can control in this life, especially what others do. We can control how we choose to cope with situations, maybe if you find yourself in unstable relationships with unreliable people, it is time to examine the patterns in your life. Are your expectations of yourself and others realistic? Are you taking the time to take care of yourself emotionally? It can be hard to work in a job you are totally overqualified for. What are you doing to make you feel good about your life? You deserve to feel good about yourself, to enjoy your life. Please take good care of yourself!!! xo