Rochele: hugs to you!
Thanks to all for the encouragement and support. It is not easy to keep admitting how many times I have fallen. But I do keep getting back up.
LP: love the grounding techniques. Another thing a therapist once used with me was EFT (aka "tapping.")
Got an ok night's sleep after hitting an AA meeting (where I was the only woman of 6 people). Today is a new day.