No problem at all
I guess its just the way I wrote the post gave an impression I was messing around or don't wish to remain sober. I really do want to be sober but occasionally have a stupid fantasy of taking an E and as its not alcohol all will be fine. Obviously if I took an E, the likelihood is I would take another when coming down, and another, use up all 10 over the space of 3 days, crash and burn and then reach for a drink on Wednesday. I forget how incredibly depressing come downs are and how I used to drink on them, glass of red wine in the morning to take the edge off etc!!! So no worries, I'm just glad I cancelled getting those pills. From now on I should view pills as a form of alcohol. As taking a pill, could lead to a drink, so in a silly way it is a drink!