I went back & forth with the " voice" for over a yr. I was so depressed if I didn't drink. I was tired of the battle in my head w/ IT & would give in.
Until I saw that IT was a liar. I could be happy w/ out booze.
Once I accepted I could never drink again & was ok with that is when the voice eased up tremendously.
But I didn't really want to quit. I was scared to death to quit.
Then one day I realized it would never make me happy. It just made me think it would.
I hope this helps.