I was reading your posts on the forum - you seem to get it - I feel like I had it down for a number of years but i did give myself that out especially in the last year - so is that it? if I don't give myself an "out" I can do this? How do I make sure I don't change my mind again. It was so easy that first few years as I was so committed. I think in some way i forgot how persistent the voice (as i call it) can be.