Ared83

Almost 3 weeks of sobriety, downed about a 1.75 litre of vodka in less than four days and drank everyday for the last 3 and a half years. I felt terrible the first week, then the next week got better and it and it was actually a somewhat liberating experience , but now I'm back to feeling like crap again......the doc still has me on librium and paxil, any suggestions on why I still feel like crap and unhappy? The really bad cravings don't help as well, it's all I still think about is alcohol, I want it so bad but I know now that it's taboo (I just pray to god I don't relapse, I don't want to experience this again, but there's always that little voice in my head repeating day after day).