Originally Posted by
kellyprettybird 
but lately being alone has felt like a void. I need to figure out what that empty space is really about and stop trying to fix it with alcohol. I've just been afraid to face it....
Yes! That's exactly it.
I had gotten to the point where I couldn't stand to be by myself, which wasn't surprising since I really didn't like myself at all. I had worked so hard to fill the void with people, work, alcohol - it was exhausting. I knew I had to figure out a way to feel connected to the universe in a way that made sense to me, a spiritual connection.