Oh, I can empathise. I feel lonely in one way, too, because I don't have a romantic companion this valentine's day. But let me say, if I had been with someone for the past year or two, their life would have been difficult and I don't think the relationship would have worked. It's only now that I am learning to be honest with people, largely thanks to this Forum where I don't have to lie or cover anything up. Also with my sponsor and the people in AA and also with myself. I wasn't honest before. And there was no way a relationship would work if I wasn't honest. Also, being single has given me the time to work on my recovery without outside pressure and that's been really good for me.