I find it difficult to remember how I was at 8-10 months too, maybe part of my mind has shut it out or I was still in some fog. I was feeling better in some ways - was having more moments when I just forgot about alcohol, the obsession was fading - though I still had some way to go. The good glimpses I got in my recovery journey kept me going, the first year had it's rough times, but also some good moments. I saw the possibility of what life could be like permanently sober, but it's a healing journey and some of it goes at its own pace. Doing much better these days, but it's still a 'work in progress' as they say.