I too just made my first post here. Today I'm 29 days sober. I joked with my wife last night that a relapsed..... had a candy bar :-) You will heal - even if some of the healing is painful. And as a father of three (and almost four) kids, I can tell you that you'll be able to feel the love of those children in a way that you haven't for five years.
So, when your body inevitably tells you that you can have a drink... if you only satisfy that craving it will be better.... remember the love of your children and you'll get through.