Welcome sntinatree....Such an honest post...I will say a prayer for you today....I think the only reason I am alive and sober today is because of prayers from other people...My mom included. It can't hurt. Yeah...Alcohol will destroy your life....No doubt about it and I admire your courage to address it. Just two questions for you. Are you safe with detoxing on your own?....And do you have any kind of program or plan that you are willing to try?