Welcome Joelly
Personally can't stand wine, makes me sick (ironic). Vodka is my binge trap. Just finished day 8 sober (not the first time) and feeling much better and sleeping great and bouncing out of bed even before sunrise. Love the early mornings! But sure as hell last evening there he was...my little personal Loki demon taunting me to just go a little way down that trail, what could it hurt?
Well I didn't and I won't. I am just wired different from other folks, like my wife for instance. If I start with just one drink I know I will find myself on the other side of six weeks or so back at the bottom wondering what the number of that truck was. I have no brakes. When I fall off the wagon it will drag me down the road at least a couple of miles. This is a fact.
Welcome to the group, you've come to a good place. Everybody here knows exactly what you are dealing with. You can't shock anyone here. Hang in there, you will do it
Never give up, never surrender!