My assurance that God was real and loved me came to me because of my AS when he was a teenager and beginning his self-destructive journey. God showed Himself to me one day at my kitchen table when I was crying over my son. Isn't it interesting how God uses the pain in our lives to draw us to Him? Though this journey we are on is not an easy one, with God it is bearable. I love this quote from C. S. Lewis:
“Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”