(((Debbie)))
I'm so sorry you're blue. Something we sometimes forget...there are people in relationships that never had a problem with alcohol or drugs who are not happy, and it takes looking seriously at the relationship to see if something can be done to bring it alive again. Unhappiness in a relationship is not just caused by addiction, but can have many causes.
Maybe getting some relationship counselling would help, or just having a talk with hubby to discuss what you two enjoy doing together that you haven't done for a long time. Getting out for a nice dinner, a country drive, this time of year fall fairs are abundant and fun, go see a movie, find a hobby that you each would enjoy...just anything to keep the relationship from getting stagnant.
And if he won't join in, then make a point of doing something for you that is fun and enjoyable.
It's okay to be blue, we all feel that way sometimes, but it's up to us not to hang out there too long.
Oh, and see your doctor and get hormones if you are having all the fun symptoms of menopause. You don't have to suffer, and believe me, if that is the problem it will make a huge difference....no, it will make a HUGE difference.
Huge hugs
Ann