Thanks Dee, yes we have talked about this before, I thought I had more time to figure it out. I will seek additional support, yes I know I will need it. I am excited to see him yet I am also scared. Scared of the me that uses and manipulates situations to get the poison! I do not want to go back here, I won't live long if I do and it is not fun anymore, it hasn't been for a ling time now. I am just one sick individual.