I've come a long way in my recovery this past year.
But you know what......there are still times that I still feel like I'm unhappy. AH still does things that just get under my skin and make me miserable. (I posted about this not too long ago)
I think that it's kind of normal for us to feel that way. We've endured so much, lost so much, greived for so much, etc. We need time to heal.
Don't be so hard on yourself. It's one day at a time, remember?