1st try...day 2
hi all, so i found this board months ago and have checked in since. so this is the 1st time trying to give it up. i've been drinking more & more over the last 3 years, probably haven't gone a day w/o drinking in that time...i built up to drinking a 1.75 liter in 4 days. i'm not one who goes out & does things i regret. i'm a loner. i just stay home, start drinking mid afternoon & maintain a state of comfortably numb til i go to bed. i think depression, boredom & loneliness are the big reasons i drink. just makes the day go by. believe me i know i need to get out & do stuff, i realize i isolate.
i've grown tired of it. i think about what it's doing to my body everyday. i don't wake up feeling really hungover, but getting a jittery and anxious feeling at times that i don't like. i realize it is affecting my mind, i've had to pay a good amount of money on things i've missed or neglected to report in my job. i'm tired of always having to buy it, i'd hit every liquor store in town so they wouldn't see me every 3-4 days. i've had lasting luck w/ weight loss & quitting smoking in the past. hope since i'm ready to do this i'll have the same luck. yeah, i know someone posted in another post of mine that this isn't like those.
so far not feeling bad...yet, waiting for it to hit me though. how long does that take? didn't sleep good, but that's nothing new.
not sure about AA. i think the part of that i would like is a sponsor...just someone to talk too.