Originally Posted by
Healthyfood 
Today I feel very low. Why? Im been thinking about this life style in a long term and that really scares me.
People around me cheer for approaching weekend, parties and fun.
I can avoid these parties, but how long? There will be case where I won't be able to reject. Baby shower or kids birthdays, booze is part of any of them.
What a struggle.
Sounds like you have forgotten what you felt like when you arrived here in the first place.
You are remembering the fleeting fun of drinking and forgetting the horrible results of it after. Hopefully you won't have to repeat the process to be reminded.
I attend meetings regularly to be reminded that it isn't any better out there for an alcoholic like me and when I entertain the thoughts that it is.. I'm skating on thin ice.
Best of luck to you.
Bob R.