I just don't know....
I just don't know what I am right now. I don't NEED to drink, I go days/weeks without drinking BUT once i have ONE I can't stop until its all gone. I have the most amazing husband who keeps asking me if I need to get help (rather angrily). I hide the stuff everywhere... so he won't be mad that its in the house. I'm alone WAY too much and don't have a social life. I'm turning into a bad parent. I do my best to hide it but the kid isn't dumb. I don't get "positive" support in this, just more yelling which leads to more drinking which yada yada... I don't even know where to start