Thanks Dee. I am considering the idea of going to AA meetings. I've always stubbornly refused it. Right now I don't want to be anywhere near people if humanly possible.
I feel pretty horrible this evening. I'm shaking like a leaf, and I have horrible anxiety. Sadly I've been much worse in the past. I've suffered hallucinations, been taken to the emergency room. I'm only 35 and I know one day it will lead me to an early death.