went to a party
I met a new sober friend, that's good. I already started drinking though, that's bad. I controlled my drinking during my public time, that's neither good nor bad, just fooling myself. Once I got home, 2 bottles of wine more, and off I go on a massive bender. The past couple of months, I've realized, I can't drink in moderation, those days are gone, getting off the junk is another story though, it's going to be another nasty couple of weeks.
Edit: I'm not looking for advice, I know what to do. I put this up here for all of you who are reading for the first time. If you are here, you probably have a problem right now. It might not be drinking, but might also be, you came to the right place, stick around and share.