Ok- if the discussion re "why this thread" is over- i will throw in some challenges that i face [16yrs clean/sober]
1] the arrogance of Not Calling someone in the program when i am hurting- this happens just enough that i know i need to pray this thing thru.
2] how do you grieve a sponsor who relapses? - 2 of the most influential men in my recovery went back out. One is still out 2 years later . And he is the one with whom i have done the deepest inner child, learning-to-love-myself work. Ironically, they both showed up at the ICU when my son was airlifted w/ TBI from a bad bike crash. Gotta admit- they were convenient vent targets- especially as they had never met so i could introduce them to each other as "two of the biggest and most stupid M#@**F&^$7*rs" i knew etc etc . One was on a broken leg- flipped his vette [and a DUI] when he was trying to get to the hospital.
that'll do for now
thanks for the thread...