Sally I drank 4 to 5 cartons of tesco white wine a day...that stuff is nasty so I know where your coming from.
I hope you can see your doctor and arrange a schedule, I did, I had to see three doctors before one actually would help though...go see more doctors till you find one who will really help and cares.
I had to fess up and get back to meetings too, scared the **** outta me but I feel better now. Glad you got it sorted with your sponsor.