Ahab, while I sometimes ponder what I would be like if I hadn't begun drinking....if I had never drank at all, I start to think of what life will be like once I have omitted alcohol from my completely.
I know how you feel (as I am back on day 2 myself
). That feeling of "how did this happen again????" and "when will it end." It sucks. We humans as individuals can be incredibly powerful if we can avoid those vices that bring us down.
But your day 2 is better than day 0. And so will day 3...4....5 and so on. Perhaps we both should wake up each morning and read these forums as a reminder of our goal in life.