I lived in the darkness of fear for years. I knew it wouldn't change the outcome but it just became my way of life. My son has been missing for years, lost somewhere in his addiction.
What helps me is to say a prayer each morning and give his care to God. That lets me live my life well, trusting that God can do for him and me, what we cannot do for ourselves.
I learned there is truth to the saying that if we live in regret of yesterday and fear of tomorrow, we lose all the joy in today.
Today I live in joy and peace and faith. It's a much brighter world and my life is worth living once more.
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