Reading thru the book at the part where the girl is at the show and realizes anxiety to hug the band member as a beast excuse rang a bell in my mind.
I just thought that this realization wipes out my 'relapse anxiety' I had the other day since my beast's usual excuse was 'im really angry and depressed I -Mr. Beast- deserve a release'.
So these reasons should logically evapourate since I have decided I will never take drugs again and I will never change my mind.
Of course life brings it's ups and down but I will deal with them from a position of 'secure abstinence'.
