Ah your link to 'relapse anxiety' just pointed out something I was about to bring up and pretty self explanatory that it is what I was concerned about. I still have the resolve that I will never drink again right now unlike before I made my big plan where I wasnt ready to say never. I am definitely still saying never but woke up today 'scared' I may lose my resolve. So this is just to be marked up as beast activity? Not quite up the that page yet (183) but just jumped ahead.
So my beast is just masquerading in my mind thoughts of relapse anxiety and to be flushed out like any other beast thought?