If I don't drink today I'll wake up with 60 days sober tomorrow. I don't know why I was able, on the first day to keep my promise to myself to not drink when I had failed to do so for so many other days, but I did. I would be very sad to think I had lost that gift. Very sad because I know that if I drink once I won't be able to stop. I want THIS life that I have now. For me nothing is worth the risk.