Originally Posted by seek

Some people are blessed with strong blind faith. I am not one of them. Never have had strong faith. But I do believe in God - just can't justify all of my life being directed by God . . .

I have lost trust in the alcoholics, and have lost trust in God. I don't believe God "did this to me" or them, but I don't feel cared for . . . I feel that the pain I have been through has been so incredibly difficult (and not discounting that other people have it much worse).

Emotionally, and spiritually, I feel battered and broken.

I do "work" on my spirituality - prayer and meditation - but still I feel scared.