Welcome to the SR family!
I'm glad you are here, but sorry about the circumstances that brought you here. I hope you will make yourself at home by reading and posting as much as needed. You are not alone, and we are here to support you.
Yes, you may have acknowledged to yourself what you ultimately need to do. Accepting that will take time. I felt a sense of relief when I finally accepted what I needed to do to help myself and my children. Then I was able to focus on making a plan of action.
While I was still living with active alcoholism in my home, I found some valuable information here at SR. I am sharing a link to a permanent post (called stickies) that contains steps that really helped me while living with addiction in my home.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-problem.html