Most days he lays on the floor and does nothing. Hes depressed and suicidal, but doesn't want help. I know mixing the meds and drinking could be leathal and so does he. I've got to the point of stepping back, hes doing this, not me. I will not take responsibility for his actions, or what happens, but its hard to watch.
How about you quit watching? Have you considered attending al-anon meetings? They can be very helpful by teaching you to detach from whatever he does. Having face-to-face support from others dealing with the same thing can be a tremendous help. I hope you'll consider it.
Also, I hope you continue to come here to post and read. You will find some really good information in the "stickie" posts at the top of this forum. You don't have to allow his moods or whether or not he drinks affect your own well-being and serenity.
Welcome to SR!