NM, you're here and posted. This is a great beginning! Diet soda isn't good for the body, neither is liquor, not in the quantities you're consuming. Eventually these may harm your health.
Productive non-drinker during the day, escape artist at night. I can definitely relate.
Glad you're here. Maybe listen to xa-speakers, lots of productive people speaking, I don't recall which names to suggest, maybe Paul O.
Best wishes to you, whatever you choose!
Hugs & love,