Originally Posted by
jfrancis0626 
Hey Galfriday. You will stop. When your ready, you will stop. I realized something in becoming clean, I had to really want it. I was forced into gettin clean in the beginning, to be honest, I didn't want to because it masked all my pain. But, eventually, once I really wanted to get clean and sober, I finally started to really try. You will get there!
You gotta get a good strong support network. And you will find that when your ready.
Best of luck to u! Please vent to me anytime!!
Julz
thanks for writing. Right now I "sort-of" want to get clean. I know I need to, I know I'm on a slippery slope, I know I'm not doing the right thing. I'm still struggling with the thoughts that the pills make me a better and more productive person. So I am here trying to make myself really really want to be clean (if that even makes since). This site so far has been an eye-opening experience about my situation that I've been completely naive about.