At the end of How It Works in the Big Book it states....c)that God "could" and "would" if He were SOUGHT!! This means to me that I have to do what it takes to seek a Higher Power and to learn to trust that He will restore my sanity. The "sanity" mentioned in the 2nd step doesn't imply that I'm crazy. What it does mean is that time after time, day after day, having my life wrecked more and more by alcohol that I continue to drink thinking "this time it will be different." The day I stopped drinking was the day I got the message that "not drinking" was the only way anything was going to change. By that time I was on the verge of losing everything important to me. You don't have to go that far.