Try not to beat yourself up too much ontherightpath. Drinking is what people do everywhere, but you can't let that interfere with YOUR sobriety.
I'm in the AA program, have a sponser,work the steps. That's what works for me. It's a lifestyle change. It may seem a little strange at first, but then it starts to feel a little better. Now I at the point where I can't wait for my meetings. It's an hour of the day when I see myself in so many other people and connect with them in ways I don't connect even with my wife(please, no one tell her that). It's a wonderful thing.
I'm part of something much bigger than me, and that's an awesome place to be.
God bless.