On the Right Path,
It sounds as if you know what you need to go. Go back to AA. Find a sponsor. Take the steps out of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. Live the program. The real change and the real recovery is in the twelve steps. You can go to a grocery store every day for ninety days, but if you don't buy any food, you are going to be mighty hungry. It works the same way with meetings: you can go to a meeting every single day, but if you don't take the actions to work the suggested program of recovery, you are going to be mighty thirsty. This doesn't have to continue to be a broken record, but if you keep doing what isn't working, not only will it be a broken record but it can get worse -- much worse.
Susan