Bay...you have been posting a long time. Each time I read your threads, alcohol is involved.
There are many out there who can stop drinking on their own using AVRT or another program like SMART, etc.
For this drunk, I needed a group of others who found that only with help from people like me could I maintain any kind of time sober.
Maybe you are the same way?
For me, I go to AA. I have a sponsor and though I procrastinate, I am working the steps. Actually, I mull them in my head every day every hour ever morning and ever night.
It keeps me from drinking.
Maybe it could work for you?