Tried, Failed, Self Harm *trigger*
I tried...I failed...I tried and have been doing so well with not drinking, especially during the day....
And then I got into a huge fight with the bf where he mocked me....the booze doesn't do it for me anymore... I have cut back so much...there are 8 bottles of booze at my place at a time where I don't touch...I do still drink during the night, but haven't touched it during the day...the last week or so I mean...not a huge accomplishment but big enough.
Whatever....
I know a lot of people will deal with stress with booze......
But I have gone backwards totally...
I have done something to myself that is a bit harmful more so than booze....or is it, I don't know. I just needed to share because NO ONE in my life understand...
I have written and deleted this post so many times...
There is no sense in apologizing, as some people said in my life, it's a sob story that I am apparently trying to get. Have people feel sorry for me.
Just thank you to everyone.