kiknit-
The guilt is seriously getting to me. I think part of my problem is fearing getting sober for a good period of time and then looking back and saying, "Wow, I wasted so much of my life." Of course, a rational person would say, better to do that now than 2, 3 or 4 years down the road, or worse, never. But I still feel like I've wasted so much. And lost so much. Bad day, I guess.