Thought id give you an update...
today is my 21st sober day.
Spoke to the counselling service last Friday, and it seems that I cannot access any of the services I would like to, becuse I have admitted to over indulgence, and that I could see that I may on occassion self medicate. I have said that I genuinely do not believe I am an alcoholic, but I do have an unhealthy and very possibly, no probably damaging relationship. I fear that in a heartbeat I could absolutly loose control of my drinking. Which is why I am taking back control while I can.
so, I cant access the services cos I have asdmitted to poor relations with drink, and a drinker will not be receptive to psycological help. So I have to go to the. Alcohol worker first.
so..
I contact the Alcohol support Services, and... Wait for it.... I cant have any help from them, because I am not an alcoholic who is currently using. I have a little sober time, thus proving I can do it alone, and their resources are valuable and scarce and the criteria for accecptance is tight and unyeilding.
I give up.
I reached out, and was knocked back. I wont do it again.