Originally Posted by
MsMahon 
What is wrong with me.
After living with extreme effects of AH's alcoholism and experiencing the effects of his insanity, I would stil have jumped in the car to rescue him if I'd got that text.
I've been reading everything on SR for nearly 2 years and could hardly believe how similar every experience is to mine.
They lie. They regret. They deny. They blame. They plead. They destroy.
And yet I fall for it every time
When will I ever learn.
Sadly I admit that it took everything inside me nor to run to the rescue. I'm proud of myself, but I wish I was well enough to completely leave it alone.
It was a pathetic attempt to gain my attention.